I have nothing inspiring to say this morning. I’m just venting. It’s back to square one again.
What does square one mean anyway?
This morning I am in my feelings.
I woke up late because I went to bed late. That is no one’s fault but my own. But still, I became instantly annoyed at the fact that it takes me so long to get to work; to get to work and sit at a desk and do absolutely nothing because pretty much all of our work has been done; to get to work and receive ridiculous emails from “leadership”; to get to work and realize that I can do everything that I’m getting paid to do at this desk in the comfort of my own home; to get to work, leave at 3:45 only to arrive back home at 6:00…
This is me today. Again, I’m totally in my feelings.
But as I sat here, mad, frustrated, and any other adjective similar to the aforementioned that you can think of, I remembered the instruction from the Lord: “Cast your cares on me.” I’m not going to lie. There have been times when the thought of casting my cares on the Lord made me even more angry. I would cry out in anger because I feel like, “Lord, you ALREADY KNOW!!! What’s going to change??? Just let me be mad!!!!!”
But that, obviously, has gotten me nowhere. I just end up feeling worse. So today, I’m going to try You Lord. The Word says to taste and see that You’re good. The word says to cast all my cares on You because You care for me. The Word says that I can come boldly to the throne of grace, receive mercy, and find grace to help me in my time of need. So, today, I choose to give my worries over to You. I know that in You, I can rest because You really do care.
So now, I’ll rest and wait on You.